Why is life harder for me right now?
Why does it seem like things keep getting more difficult?
What will it take for me to feel that incredible joy I used to feel?
Ugh!!!! I can't seem to break out of this feeling. I know the truth and what God is asking me to do through all of this, but I cant seem to except it.
God has told me to serve others, build my relationship with Him, and I can't seem to find joy in those things.
I know I must make the choice to lay down my self in order to serve God best. I want to make that choice, but I need God to make it for me. I am such a failure at giving up my selfish wants and desires. God is real and I know He hears my cry. God is the only one who understands what I am struggling with.
I want to be able to help others, but I can't when I am struggling with things.
The Motions
This might hurt, it's not safe
But I know that I've gotta make a change
I don't care if I break,
At least I'll be feeling something
'Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life
I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?
"No regrets, not this time
I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love make me whole
I think I'm finally feeling something
'Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of this life
'Cause I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?
"take me all the way (take me all the way)
take me all the way ('cause I don't wanna go through the motions)
take me all the way (I know I'm finally feeling something real)
take me all the way
I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?
"I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?
"take me all the way (take me all the way)
take me all the way (I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go)
take me all the way (through the motions)
take me all the way
I don't wanna go through the motions
6 comments:
That's good Morgan. I would like to just help make you aware of one thing:
You said that you "Must make the choice to lay down your self", but that you "Need God to make it for you". I just want to say that the choice to lay down yourself, or your selfish desires, is YOUR choice. God gave man his own will so that he would CHOOSE to do what was right, and CHOOSE to fallow Him. So don't be fooled by that. It is not up to God to make the choice for you. He wants you to make that choice.
I think your heading in the right direction. Keep it up.
JON~
Hey, Morgan...
I just want to let you know that I'm working through the same thing myself! Let me just tell you that your relationship with Jesus is the most important thing you could possibly work on. Me, myself...I've noticed that I've totally lost focus on how much I really care about my relationship with Him. So, even though many times I don't feel like it at all, I spend time with Him. That may mean reading my Bible, reading other things that encourage me in Christ, listening to music about Him, listening to sermons on my iPod, blogging to express my feelings about the relationship, or just praying, and praying in all different ways at all different times. I've heard it said many times that feelings often follow actions, and not the other way around. So even if you don't feel like it, pursue Him! "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you." It's a promise! He WILL fulfill it! Don't ever give up! And believe me, the personal, inside relationship you have with Jesus is what is going to make life REALLY worth living!
I can't tell you how timely it was for me to read this blog at 3 am. I'm not even kidding. Just to know that there are people that are working through the same thing, and looking for the same answers that I am is such an encouragement to me! God is so faithful to show us that we're not alone in our struggles.
I'm here for you, anytime you need to talk, ok? :) You can even call me if you want! Just message me on FB and ask for my number if you don't have it. I'm praying for you! Love and miss ya, girl! <3
Yes, I know you are right and I know God has given me a choice. Sometimes I just wish He would make desisions for me and choose to do the right thing for me. I know ultimately it is up to me, that is just how I feel sometimes.
Thanks for your prayers.
Hey morg, just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you. When you said, "I am such a failure at giving up my selfish wants and desires" it made me think that I should never discourage myself by saying that I am a failure at something... you shouldn't either.
I will always keep you in my prayers.
Many blessings,
-Justin
*hugs*
I wish that I was really smart and/or deeply spiritual and could say something that would make you feel better. But maybe that is not even what you want. I do know that I love you just the way you are, and God loves you so much much more. And He made you, and He knows exactly what you're going through, so tell Him about it.
be free
~noel~
I appriciate you guys so much. It is nice to know I have great friends that will stand by me and encourage me no matter what I am going through. You guys are amazing.
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